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Author's love for father is at emotional heart of book
By Beth Kephart
Marquart, Debra. The Horizontal World: Growing Up Wild in the Middle of Nowhere. New York: Counterpoint Press, 2006.
Born and bred in a "small North Dakota town east of the Missouri
River,"
Debra Marquart was the youngest daughter of a farmer-father--a pretty
blond with a fine singing voice and a genius for rebellion.
Even as a girl, she knew she wanted out of a place that offered
little
more than "[t]hree blistering months of summer packed between
eight bitter
months of winter." She knew she despised her chores, pitied
the presumed
captivity of farmers' wives, wanted not to be what she was supposed
to
be--a guardian of a swath of land passed down through generations.
She
studied TV shows and consulted maps with a fevered determination
to take
leave. She smoked her cigarettes and went off with boys to do the
sorts of
things that proved her independence. She had a talent, she writes
in her
new book, "The Horizontal World," for metaphor--"[t]his
habit of drawing
equations between unlikely objects."
"The Horizontal World" is a collection of essays, of
memories shaped over
time. It is a book of reflection on a place that few of us will
ever
know--a repository of richly limned anecdotes about the separation
of
calves from their mothers, chickens' heads from their necks, town
girls
from farm girls, brothers from sisters and dreams from reality.
Marquart's
ability to place us there, with her, in that desolate, surprising,
defeating, liberating, pitiable, gorgeous world is her great talent.
Her
decision to focus on the crafting of each individual essay, as opposed
to
the creation of a cohering, narrative whole, makes for a book in
which
exquisite phrasing and insights bump up against occasional repetitions
of
biographical fact (we're frequently reminded throughout, for example,
that
Marquart had a career as a rock star), not to mention jarring shifts
in
tone.
Marquart reaches her most effective emotional heights when she
is writing
about her father, a man who loved to sing and was physically fragile,
yet
who nonetheless took on the shackled life of a farmer. He was a
great
storyteller who steered clear of intimate moments. He had his kids
driving
trucks and dangerous machinery before their feet could even reach
pedals.
When the author drops out of college to tour with a leather-clad
rock
band, her father can hardly hide his disdain for the choices she
has made.
Marquart is not at her father's side when he dies, though at the
hospital
where he lay ill she had promised him that she'd return. She barely
makes
it home in time for his funeral. She doesn't get to say to him,
in the
end, "Dad, I do love you."
And yet, the love of this daughter for her father is unmistakable--the
book's clearest through-line, its most wrenching, prevailing emotion.
Maybe, we come to understand, Marquart needs to leave her father
because
she's too much like him. Maybe she doesn't give herself enough time
to get
to the funeral not out of selfishness or poor planning, but out
of a
desire to keep her cherished memories alive:
"I thought of my father's body dressed in a blue suit, lying
parallel to
the horizon inside a steel blue coffin lined with satin. I didn't
want to
see his hands held together in eternal prayer, a black rosary wound
around
his fingers. I didn't want to shake the thin, sympathetic hand of
the
undertaker or admire the sheaf of wheat bound with a blue ribbon
and
placed inside his coffin. . . . I wanted to remember those hands
shuffling
a deck of cards, dealing ten to me, ten to him, picking up spares
and
slapping down discards. . . ."
Marquart has published poetry as well as a collection of lyrical
stories,
and her mastery of the single sentence is superb. One hears the
singer in
her, the woman who has spent a lifetime holding notes high, or cutting
them, dramatically, short. One can imagine passages of the book
being read
aloud.
But Marquart's artistry can devolve into gimmickry, and sometimes
the
connections between her purported themes and anecdotes run dangerously
thin. I found the chapter "The Horizontal Life" to be
particularly
difficult. Announcing itself as a piece about Marquart's early sexual
exploits, this essay, written in an odd third person, feels more
like a
literary exercise than an honest reckoning. The insights don't quite
feel
earned, and the writing is coy--strutting and proud in places, eliding
and
tedious in others, as in this somewhat fumbling passage:
"The grain elevator burning down will prove to be a symbolic
event in her
life, not that the girl that I was would have perceived it as such,
since
she had never heard of symbols and will not hear about symbolism
for a
good many years--long after she had ceased to be herself and was
well on
her way to becoming someone else who would, by some strange twist
of fate,
become me."
Such passages notwithstanding, Marquart regains her power over
readers in
ensuing chapters. In the book's strongest essay, "Signs and
Wonders," she
effectively combines the discovery that a river has been
flowing--mysteriously, unheralded--beneath her hometown for years
with a
deeply touching final sequence on her father's life and death. Here
Marquart keeps her themes close, her story purposeful. She weaves
a web
that holds. She finds vestiges of her father in dimes, and on the
letters
of a student's baseball cap. She hears him speak in a dream. She
has a
confession to make, and she makes it. "Signs and Wonders"
is Marquart at
her best--her language musical, her heart open, her faith in forgiveness
ripe and real.
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